The Summer of ‘73
Eventually my high moments would be replaced by some bad decisions on my part. I began to lose interest in my studies, especially math and science, and I began to get in trouble, mostly cutting up in class and being rude to teachers. I had completely lost track of my friends from Uptown and I started feeling restless and depressed. I wanted to go away to school, to a boarding school, or to a private high school. I started skipping classes and I barely passed eighth grade. I felt lost, yet again. I don’t really remember what I did that summer, other than join the Beach Club Swim Team. I never really thought of myself as a great swimmer, but I did win a first place blue ribbon in the boys 14+under relay, a second place red ribbon in the boys 14+under breast, and two third place finishes, as my competitive edge always stayed intact.
Other than swimming, I just hung out at Beach Club or on Padua’s Pier, drinking, smoking and trying to meet girls. My relationship with my parents and my siblings could not have gotten any worse, or so I thought. I felt alone and broken, and I was only thirteen years old. In hindsight, I had gone off my Tofranil, for whatever reason. If I had to put my finger on it, looking back on it now, even though I knew that the Tofranil was helping me, deep down inside I felt like I wasn’t normal for taking it in the first place, and I really just wanted to fit in like everyone else, and to just be and feel normal.
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My Wonder Years: A Book

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